17 pounds and counting.....

Well, I've been at this for 8 weeks now and I've lost a total of 17 pounds (17.2 to be exact). It hasn't been too hard, which is a wonderful blessing.

I don't think I have been fully committed to this until about 2-3 weeks ago. My heart just wasn't fully into it. I would let myself have more "cheats" than I should. But something clicked 3 weeks ago though. It was after Thanksgiving. The actual weekend of Thanksgiving itself didn't do much damage. The damage came the next week. I began to revert back to my eating patterns...large meals, fast food and I even let the kids do a junk food night that I participated in...No surprise...I gained weight that week. That's when I told myself I needed to be "ALL IN or ALL OUT."

Here is how the conversation with myself went....
"This isn't a spectator sport. You have to participate in your own life change...no one else can do it for you. You are spending a lot of money on this and Tony and the kids have made sacrifices for you. Yes, if you fail, they will get past it and still love you no matter what...but you know that you won't forgive yourself and will only plummet further. Now get up, put your big girl panties on and climb back on that horse. YOU CAN DO IT!!!"

It was that conversation that changed my behavior...and don't act too surprised that I talk to myself, admit it, you guys do it too...I'm just thrilled that it was such a positive conversation (most of the conversations in the past weren't near that positive).

Anyways, other than the scale, I haven't noticed much of a physical change, except for how I am feeling. Yes, I still have my bad days where my CFS kicks my butt and I just have to rest, but those days are far-out-numbered by the good ones. I've been going to the gym at lunch about 4 days a week too. (I don't really like working out at lunch, but it is the only time that I really have to go.)

Anyways, I'll keep you guys posted on my progress. Maybe when the physical changes start showing, I'll post some pictures of my progress.

I love you all and your prayers have been a true blessing. Keep it up, because I know I'm not in this alone. He has carried and continues to carry me through each day!