(Disclaimer: This is going to be a Debby Downer post. I'm not asking for warm fuzzy comments from you, I am really just using this to vent.)
I am an emotional wreck today. I have honestly felt this building for about a week now, but today I have hit the bottom. It's as if a a lot of complaints, aches and pains have come on full force today and they are just wrecking me emotionally. I have cried twice at my desk already today and as I'm typing this, I can feel a third breakdown coming on. Each thing in itself (except for one) are really just small things and I think the one large thing is what has pushed me over the edge. So, here is my list....
1) Money...I know we have an emergency fund for this sort of thing, but really? Is it really necessary for the emergency fund to be emptied in one fail swoop? Not to mention, how the heck are we supposed to build the emergency fund back up to where it belongs before the next shoe drops?
Last week after my testing at the Heart Hospital, I had to pay $319 dollars before they would let me walk out the door. My car was also in the shop that same day and we had to pay $160 in repairs. We were not prepared for either of these, but more importantly, we were not prepared for the additional $755 in medical bills that graced our mailbox doorstep the next day.
So, if you know anything about Dave Ramsey, you know the emergency fund is $1000. If you are good at math, you have also already figured out that the $1000 does not cover the amount we need to pay. So, now I get to grovel with the debtors and ask for a reduced amount or some sort of payment plan. Neither of which I am looking forward to.
2) Quinn's homework...Last night while he was doing his math homework (pre-ap pre-algebra), he got stuck on one of the problems. Now, it has easily been over 20 years since I've done any type of Algebra. I work in math all day, but my math is not in the unknown. I use actual numbers.
So, as I tried to help him with his math and asked to see his book, he informed me he hadn't brought it home. I preceded to ask, how in the heck he expected me to help if I couldn't read over the lesson to familiarize myself with the concepts again. This may seem small to you, but considering this was my continual complaint to him last year, you think he would have it figured out...BRING HOME MATH BOOK.
3) This one is the one that pushed me over the edge...My aunt lost her battle with cancer last night. I hadn't really cried over her illness yet, but when I got the call from my parent's, I lost it. Mary was such a sweet lady. She was always bubbly and loving.
4) Not that this about me, but the funeral is set for Thursday. Well, with being sick so much, I have missed a lot of work and worked from home a lot. This week is the last week of our fiscal year and Thursday is the last day. So the stress of having to tell my boss that I need to work from home and be gone for the funeral has spiked my stress level. I am in finance...I have no choice but to work on the last day of our year.
5) And I have been eating everything in site. I am obviously not dealing with my stress in the proper manner. Ugh!
It's just a lot happening all at once. I sense a locked door, hot bath in my near future. "CALGONE...take me away!!!"
Prairie Godmother
1 year ago
3 comments:
Praying for you and your family. **hugs**
So, instead of giving you a bunch of of that warm fuzzy claptrap you didn't want, I thought I'd offer you this, which always comforts me:
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Matthew 11:28-30 NIV
and this...
"God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble."
Psalm 46:1 King James Version
My prayers are with you, Becky. Love you!
I'm sorry everything isn't all rainbows and unicorns. You're in my prayers. When it rains it pours and when I'm in a rut and feel like nothing is going good and I just need a break, I always remember what my mama always said: 'if there is one thing in this world you can count on, it is change.' Hang in there, things will turn around before you know it. :)
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