What I'm Up to Wednesday

I'm sorry I've left you hanging for the last two weeks.  Initially, I wasn't in a position to tell you what was happening.  Then when I could, I still hadn't processed it enough to know what to say.  I'm still not sure, but I'm gonna give it a shot.

About a month ago, my boss told us that there would be a forced headcount reduction across our company.  At the time, we weren't sure if our team would be impacted.  However, the hives that I broke out into that night told a different story.  I really just felt like it was gonna be me.  Then two weeks ago, I got the individual call from my boss.  Effective June 30, I will no longer be working for the company that has employed me for the last 15+ years. 

I've gone through a myriad of emotions.  Sometimes I would rather just sleep...cause when I am sleeping, this isn't really happening.  I go through moments where not a thing has changed and moments where I am so down I'm not sure if it is possible for even more tears to continue to flow.

Things have changed so much since I last looked for a job.  Seriously...the last job I applied for was a hand written application and I actually got to shake some one's hand.  I've probably applied for about 15 or so jobs and been rejected for 1/3 of those already.  I can't start over at an entry level job.  I'm overqualified and need more money than entry level has to offer.  But my degree is in elementary education and I work in the business field.   

Tony and I have discussed where cuts will be made if it comes to that.  I have a month and half to hopefully find something so I can walk out of this job and right into the next one.  Pray that my job search will be swift and I will find something that makes me happy!  Cause if I really want to be honest, I haven't been happy in this job for about the last 4'ish years.  Maybe this is the swift kick in the butt that I need to make a change.