becky's babbles

Well, my blog world friends, I have been talked into (and lead) to finally write a blog. The main purpose of my blog will be to document my "healing" through Christ.
As most of you know, I have struggled with my self-image and eating issues since early in my life. I think I went on my first diet in 4th grade. During high school I struggled with bulemia and anorexia. As an adult, I have struggled with an eating disorder at the other end of the spectrum, over-eating. My weight has gone up and down for the last 16 years. The struggle got worse about 4 years ago when I came down with Epstein-Barr. (If you don't anything about Epstein-Barr, it is related to Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.) Since then, I my self-image and confidence have gone down, while my weight has gone up.
Well......
I'm done with feeling sorry for myself and only focuing on the negatives. So, that's what this blog is for...to write about my progress toward physical, mental and spiritual healing. All of which will be done through Christ.
On this journey, I feel like God has lead me to the tool that will bring about the necessary change in my life...Bariatric Surgery. I know that there is no quick fix and I know that lots of effort will need to be done on my part...but I have done so much damage to my physical body that I feel like a do-over is in order. So, physically, I'll get a new stomach....but what about the emotional part of it. I promise, I will not have the surgery until I am well on my way to healing myself in my head and my heart.
I'm ready for the best extreme makeover ever....God's Extreme Makeover.