Getting Discouraged....

(Disclaimer...I'm not telling you this in hopes of receiving encouragement or ego boosting...I just feel that I need to say it...especially to those of you who provide me so much support on my endeavor.)

I have to admit to my loyal followers that I am getting discouraged. I wasn't sure why until a few moments ago...but eureka...I figured it out. My initial path on this weight loss journey was weight loss surgery. But as each of us knows, in our journeys of life, the paths sometimes changes and so mine did. Although the final destination will still be the same, the path in getting there is much different.

Over the last month, I have had two people in my life have weight loss surgery. I am thrilled for them. Their results are amazing. One friend had surgery 6 weeks ago and has lost 55 pounds. The other had surgery a week ago and has lost over 10 pounds. I am so happy for both of them. But jealousy has reared it's ugly little head. And for someone who is addicted to food, jealousy leads to self destruction.

Over the last week, I have had more circumstances where I was off diet, then circumstances where I was on it. I have binged and snuck things into my mouth that I can't have. Then I have followed those behaviors with mental attacks on myself.

I guess I am telling you all this, to tell you that it's time for me to buck up and deal with the realization that my path to weight loss will be a long one. I can't expect myself to be perfect, but I can expect myself to do my best each and every day. It's time to start holding myself accountable and stop beating myself up when I fall. It's called Failing Forward....something I am learning to do.