Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Downhill Slide

It's only one more week until my surgery. I've lost 5 of the 8 pounds that I gained during my vacation. The first few days of the diet were very trying. I wasn't physically hungry, but I was mentally hungry. I cried several nights. Ashton's party and Halloween pretty much threw me off the wagon, but I climbed back on Monday morning. It's really been amazing. I haven't had the same emotional tie to food these last couple of days like I had at first. It's a good feeling!

My mom told me that I didn't have to do the surgery if I wasn't ready. I guess she was sensing some apprehension. So, this is the best way that I can describe how I am feeling right now.

"When I was pregnant, I was filled with elation for the first few months...but as it went on, it seemed unreal. Then the last month, it really hit. I WAS HAVING A BABY! All of the excitement was still there but it was filled with fear as well. Was I ready? Would I be a good Mom?
Well, it is the same with the surgery for me. I've been trying to have this surgery for the last year or so. Now that it is here, I am excited and scared at the same time. Am I ready? Will I be able to truly to cut my emotional tie to food?"

Once I explained it to my mom this way, she got it! I think it helped me too.

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