Friday, March 16, 2012

A Decision Made

Eight years ago, I became a workout/weight watchers junkie and lost a significant amount of weight. After that weight loss (and nursing two babies years earlier), I was a walking billboard for the song "Do Your Boobs Hang Low". At that time, Tony and I made the decision that I would have a breast augmentation with a lift and implants and a tummy tuck.

Six months after that surgery, my immune system plummeted and I became very ill. I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and even though I asked multiple doctors, none of them thought it was related to the implants. So I kept them in.

I gained all the weight back (plus SOME) and struggled for years to get it off. I was depressed and miserable. Then I made the decision to have bariatric surgery, which was a huge success. But as I've told you guys about before, I didn't walk away from that without "side affect" issues either (i.e. POTS).

There has always been a nagging voice in my head though, that my implants are still playing a much larger part in how I feel. And after the weight gain and weight loss, they are no longer the wonderful, perky girls that they were after I got them.

In trying to decide if I should have them reconstructed, I've come to the decision that I am going to remove my implants and have my natural girlies reconstructed...although, I will probably be able to share a bra with my 11 year old daughter once that is done.

I am nervous and excited both. I have many insecurities about doing this. How will my body react to the surgery and anesthesia? Will I like having itty bitties after living for years with F cups? Will the removal help the back pain that I've been having? Will the removal actually help my health? But overall, I think this will be good. I think the possible positives outweigh the negatives.

The bariatric center that did my gastric sleeve works with a plastic surgeon at OU Medical Center. He is familiar with the stretched out skin that comes after massive and quick weight loss. The plan is to have them removed mid-April. Not sure if I can photographically document this for you guys, but I will do what I can.

I feel really good about this decision and would appreciate your prayers! Just imagine if I can do this and feel healthy again. I get all giddy just thinking about that.


Kendra said...

Praying for peace as you prepare for the surgery, mercy as you go through it and grace as you recover.

Kathie Truitt said...

Honestly, all I can say is that I'm envious. Let me know if it cures the back pain...I would LOVE to have mine waayyy reduced. And I wouldn't mind at all having itty bitties. Not at all. But alas, I'm getting carried away. This isn't about me - it's about you. And I hope you are happpy with whatever you do.

Debbie said...

HUGE decision. Good for you! I will keep you in my prayers. I hope this will be as helpful as you think it might. God bless, my friend.

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