A Decision Made

Eight years ago, I became a workout/weight watchers junkie and lost a significant amount of weight. After that weight loss (and nursing two babies years earlier), I was a walking billboard for the song "Do Your Boobs Hang Low". At that time, Tony and I made the decision that I would have a breast augmentation with a lift and implants and a tummy tuck.

Six months after that surgery, my immune system plummeted and I became very ill. I was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and even though I asked multiple doctors, none of them thought it was related to the implants. So I kept them in.

I gained all the weight back (plus SOME) and struggled for years to get it off. I was depressed and miserable. Then I made the decision to have bariatric surgery, which was a huge success. But as I've told you guys about before, I didn't walk away from that without "side affect" issues either (i.e. POTS).

There has always been a nagging voice in my head though, that my implants are still playing a much larger part in how I feel. And after the weight gain and weight loss, they are no longer the wonderful, perky girls that they were after I got them.

In trying to decide if I should have them reconstructed, I've come to the decision that I am going to remove my implants and have my natural girlies reconstructed...although, I will probably be able to share a bra with my 11 year old daughter once that is done.

I am nervous and excited both. I have many insecurities about doing this. How will my body react to the surgery and anesthesia? Will I like having itty bitties after living for years with F cups? Will the removal help the back pain that I've been having? Will the removal actually help my health? But overall, I think this will be good. I think the possible positives outweigh the negatives.

The bariatric center that did my gastric sleeve works with a plastic surgeon at OU Medical Center. He is familiar with the stretched out skin that comes after massive and quick weight loss. The plan is to have them removed mid-April. Not sure if I can photographically document this for you guys, but I will do what I can.

I feel really good about this decision and would appreciate your prayers! Just imagine if I can do this and feel healthy again. I get all giddy just thinking about that.